Poison ivy vines wrap the trees thoroughly and the air seems to have more water than the stream. Late summer and time for a long cool drink of water. The stillness and the sounds are mesmerizing and I wish to sit in the sun and bake, though that is only plausible for a short time […]
Fire and Essence
Drinking in the Dark
And drinking in the dark. For the last few days I’ve been living without electric lights, just a few candles strategically placed, but otherwise, no lights. Letting the light limit me has changed how I feel about my resources, brought me home to myself in a way I had not imagined. In many years, I […]
Fire in the Earth
On the grass, sunlight and I lie motionless. Gravity moves my blood. It is Fall. The sunlight has become still and full of an awesome power. I want to just soak it up, store it. Like a fallen apple, a bit bright and a bit gamey, I lurch and list through my day. Meanwhile, […]
Willing and Unwilling: An Early Morning Meditation on Zhi
I often ask myself: What am I willing to do? What am I willing to take responsibility for? These seem straightforward enough questions in some ways, but as I grow older, I am more and more aware that I cannot know what life will bring and I am more and more wary of what I […]
The Love Strategy
I am writing this morning from a lounger on the porch overlooking the lake. The view is spectacularly relaxing and beautiful. It has been a long time coming, this view. I got here on Monday and it has done nothing but rain since then. Cold rain. I have trudged out in it every day, one […]
Bee-ing and Dying
The sunshine of Autumn is almost painfully sad. I want to sit, more often, lay in it, being so, so still that I can hear every leaf move, every bird chirp, every bug walking by. I can hardly move. I don’t want to move. I just want to lay here absorbing the sun, being ever […]
